ADD crap
I’ve been having “major issues” with focusing on what I’m doing and getting anything done at all, of late. I’m revising my strategies. The old ones don’t work anymore.
Excessive amounts of caffine used to help. Now, it just gives me panic attacks (guess what that does for my productivity). The only drug that really did much for me was Dexadrine (not sure on spelling and too lazy to look it up). It didn’t help consistantly, but could be supplimented with caffine as needed. It also had the problem of making me nervous. I built up a tolerance to it to the point where it did nothing (this was around 6 years ago). At the time, I didn’t have a doc that would work with me at all. That’s changed, but I’ve been off the meds for 6 years, I don’t really want to go back on them. The side effects bothered me a bit (it’s so cool to actually feel hunger again). Also, I’m nervous enough without it. Anyway, my drug options would be trying dex again, or trying one of the REALLY REALLY nasty ones that can completely distroy one’s internal organs. Before anyone says, “what about Adderol”, I tried it for 2 weeks when it first came out. It’s chemically very close to Dex., but tends to work more consitantly for most people. Adderoll made me incredibly unhappy, and really unpleasent to be around. So yeah, drugs aren’t an option. Also the withdrawl symptoms from going off the dex suddenly kinda sucked.
The volunteer gig has given me a bit of structure, and is oddly motivating. I set a goal today. Nevermind what it is, but I’m trying having some sort of deadline. I think the key is structuring my life a bit more.
There’s nothing I hate more than having to discover new coping mechanisims. Even music isn’t helping. Music always helps.
Swiss balls never last long in my work area, so that’s not a great idea. Also, they’re more distracting of late. I own 3 and I adore them, but they only work as furniture and excuses for exercize. meh.
I’ll update this later. I see something shiney…
